Hmmm... went to the city yesterday, i love NYC,  i feel so insegnifegent ther but it's so cool. I felt really bad tho cause i had to cancel planes wit Ajia yesterday, I felt bad, she's really cool and stuff and it kinda seamed like i was blowing her off a bit. We (the family) went to central park to see The Gates thing. I learned somethin... the arist who did that was some dude we learned about in sculper a few weeks ago, it was ight. I didn't like it too much, just seamed like a waist of a lot of money and nylon fabric.

Well... good times tho, my mom and bro made fun of my face in the park, stupid bells palsy, it pisses me off and stuff but it's all good.

The other day went to the doctors and found out i have a few months with this crap ass dissorder, the good news i guess is that it will clear up. I have to see a nerologist tho to make sure nothing else is goin on b/c as i learned from the doctor, since i had headaches leading up to bells palsy, it could b a tumor or somethin else, it's all good, what will be will be. Lots of my family is concerned about it cause my uncle had it at my age then got MS and my mom's friends feancee had it then was diegnoses wit lukimia. Oh well... i could stress about it but it's not really worth it, it's beyond my control.

Latter

~kevin

Yea... went to the hospital today. Good times. Wedsday or thursday, i don't really remember i woke up and my toung was numb, like, no feeling and i could taist anything and yesterday i woke up and my right eye wouldn't blink. IT was pretty scary, so i told my dad and went the hospital and found out i have Bell's Paulsy. So that was my day, i'll post more tomarrow

*Dances* Great day, great day, great week, great life. I'm so happy.

It's been soooooo long since i posted, i was just too tired last week and stuff, Science Olympiad had me near death, lol.

So, i'll start there i guess. So it's a nerd fest (cept 4 people from bay shore, lol) and we basicly chilled all day. We did the comp so half assed, as usual wit things in bay shore. I studied madd hard on the genetics comp and we still placed 20 somethin out of 30 something!!! WTF!!!!! but what ever, it was so much fun... till i over thought something and became uber depressed (wow, did i say uber.... w/e, to lazy to go back) but i'm over it now. It was so fun that day tho, me and some peeps explored brentwood highschool and just talked and chilled, i met 2 madd cute girls from south hampton (sux they live so far away) and we chilled 4 a wile. This was the first year i met anyone from another school like that, it's always been a dream of mine, lol. Ahhh, good times, good times. Kiera, Joyce, Sarah, and Monika u know what i'm talkin about  lol

This week was cool too, funness. I had a place to go and people 2 chill wit everyday this week!! lol, i was all like wow, i have friends, lol.

and now, i just got back from the mall after having an awsome day. I chilled wit all my science friend at school at the science olimpiad party thingie. It was a touching little deal wen the seniores got a fair well . OMG, it was so funny, mrs pagen yelled at me and emaressed the shit out of me wen i was hugging Monika,it was so f***in funny!! Then she flipped out on me wen i touched the trebuchet, omg, then i took a shinny hat off of the ogan dummy thing and walked around the school wit kiera and joyce. After that kiera and i helped a teacher wit Awarness weekend stuff and got some pringles 4 our worl, lmao, and wen i peddled home, my chain snapped!!But it's all good, so here i am, home from the mall, i chilled there wit melyssa and kiera and one of melyssa's cute friends, it was fun. Good week!!! i'm so happy, i need sleep tho....

Byee all,

>love<

So, how is everyone? I'm good, quite cold. Wow, i have so little to talk about, i'll think of stuff....

Working backwards... i just got home from the park wit some madd cool people, we just chilled and talked and threw snow at eachother, lol, we must have looked like such rejects but only the cool people were doing it, Kaitlin, Camila, brian and i were just being a** holes and tryin 2 convince kiera 2 come but she didn't....

Yesterday. I didn't have any test so it was one of those days were i just sat around and didn't care.

Thurstday. I had my Physics midterm. I think i failed, i had no idea what was going on.

Wedensday. English regents part deux. Stupid crap, i think i failed that crap, the second half of it was so confusing, i totaly f***ed up.

Tuesday. English regents parte uno. That wasn't too bad, it was just boring. The first essay was about the vaudville something or other and the second was about irrigation. I wanted 2 die. It was so annoying, i'm so glad it's over.

Monday...... what did i have monday?? Oh yea, math midterm, i think i did beter on that test them my phisics test, which is sad b/c i'm failing math and passing phisics. The math was kinda easy, just some of it was confusing

The weekend is a blir, i don't think i did anything, i just talked on line and chilled.

Over all, this weekend was pretty alright. After tests and what not i chilled wit people at school, that was cool. I saw some people i kinda fell out of touch with, i was all happy. I talked 2 camilla, she's so cool, and i saw melyssa. She's madd cool, i haven't talked 2 her in so long. he's like the chillest person i know. It was really nice 2 just chill and talk and stuff. Oh man, i just realized i havn't seen kiera in madd long, i talked 2 her on the phone and was all happy, man, now i'm sad, lol.

Just a little on feeling and the mushy crap. The whole giving up thing is sorta getting at me. I don't care as much as i used to, i guess it's better like this way cause i don't get jealous as easily, it's just so hard cause i want to like some people but i can't, i lost so much sleep last night thinking about it, i'm so detached but still really so hung up. I think it's best to just not care. Nothing good ever really comes from giving things a chance... for me or anyone else

~Kevin

Good day all. I'm having a burst of positive happyness so i'd better type fast.

Yo, it's snowing for once, can u beleive that? i'm so happy, there's like 6 inches already and all the snow on the streats around my howse r torn up with quad tracks. That shit is so much fun, snow blowing in my face, freezing my ass off, getting stuck in the snow, spining out and sliding off the seat. I'm just glad i haven't slamed into a tree or a fence yet and totally busted my ass, but it's coming, i see myself doing something that stupid.

Anyways, i donno what to talk about....

let's see what happened this week? nothing really either been tired or sleeping. Took my humanities midterm the other day and dead ass i failed that shit. Oh well, who cares? I'm not ever sure if i wanna go to callage anymore, too much work and i'm too lazy so y try?

Um.... i'v been drawing a lot, not really more then usual, but like an hour or so a day, my life is so friggen boring and bland. Sleep, drawing, piano, drawing is basicly it 4 me.

That brings me to my final topic. Relationships. I'v been thinking about it, and i thinkn i'm done. I know, it sounds stupid but like, and i haven't been trying but i have liked people... and i get atached and shit but then... i realize something, i'm nothing special, i know everyone agrees, even tho no one would admite it. I know i bitch alot about girls i like and shit but no more, it doesn't work 4 me or anyone. I guess i should get over the past, learn from it but not dwell on it. It's sad how some one i liked over the summer could get over me but i can't get over her. It's gone, i should know that and no matter how much i may mature i'll never b able to fix the past.

I'm out, good byee all